I've been sitting here, after an amazing little workout, after returning from holidays, seeking out videos for inspiration, to write my first blog that I am so nervous about. You know those videos about never giving up because Michael Jordon was kicked out of his collage basketball team, or how Oprah was fired from her first set of TV hosting jobs because they didn't think she'd make it. The ones that make you determined to go Paelo, only to find after a week, your back to hiding from the kids in the bathroom, eating an ice-cream. How do they always find you!!
I'm trying to figure out, how I am going to inspire other women to read my blog, understand me as a person, and better themselves. But the truth is I feel so unqualified to take on this role. 98% of my day, I am winging it. Rolling with the punches and trying to figure it all out as I go. So many of us go about our daily lives, second guessing every decision we make, on the fear that we may have just ballsed it all up! Parenting is so hard!
We compare ourselves to others, we compare our children to other peoples kids, trying to justify our choices, our appearance, the principles of our lives. I have friends come over and automatically apologise for why my house looks like a brothel, even though I know its clean, because Ive just finished mopping. Justifying to others why you need to hit the gym for 90 minutes 6 days a week, before you go postal! Stressing out why your body doesn't look like the chick who just ran past you on the beach, even though you know she's 20, with no kids, and gravity doesn't hate her yet!
If I could inspire anyone, or get hope that you take away anything from reading my first attempt at a blog, is simply ownership.
Own your decisions, they are YOURS. They are made 99.9% of the time with the best intentions. The consequences are rarely as bad as you would imagine.
If your house is a mess because you've played with the kids all day, the own it, if its a mess because you couldn't be ass cleaning. Wicked! If you give your 4 year old your iphone to shut him up, so you can sit, for 5 minutes and have a coffee in public so you don't leave the shops in a straight jacket, wink at those who are giving you the disapproving stares. If your body is softer, or harder than your friends then sweet. Who cares, you are healthy, you are beautiful, you created life! That's bad ass!!
The world is full of haters, we KNOW this, we've all been through it. Don't let them make you second guess your decisions, or revaluate your self worth. Screw them. Never let the misconception that you have to justify your existence prevent you from reaching your goals, your happiness and the untapped potential that lays within you. Your children, on a daily basis, watch YOU! Your actions, become theirs, your words, become their thoughts. So on the days your struggling, just take a minute and remember,
Chin Up, Shoulders Back, You've got this!