I know how it feels to look in the mirror, hate what you see and want to change everything that bares the marks that you carried and birthed a child.
Having the privilege of looking in the mirror for the second time, after bringing a child into the world, three weeks ago, I now see my body as a reminder, of what strengths I have and how I can draw on them in a time when needed most, of the connection that I share with not one but now two little legends, of husband and family who have my back whenever I need them, and what my body is capable of and what it may have in store for me as it carries me into this next chapter of my adventure.
A reflection that I have had when comparing this post natal period to my first born is that I spent a lot of time and energy hating on my body, being stressed that I wasn't losing weight, being self conscious of how I looked and what people would think being that I didn't just bounce back into shape being a personal trainer/movement coach and not getting in my bathers because there was too much anxiety that I didn't have a bikini body. That was time that was SO precious with a newborn that grows too quickly, where she would have felt my anguish, I was so distressed that I didn't allow myself to be present.
So, my hope for you new mama, is that you do not wish this precious time away, instead take every opportunity to look in the mirror and see everything that your body is and has given you, not what it is not and what you wish you had.
When you look in the mirror let it serve as a reminder to you, that you are brave, courageous, capable of loving deeper than you ever thought possible, that you have strengths that you may have uncovered in this journey that will serve you as you go forward in life, be in awe of what your body is capable of and live in excitement of what that now means for you in the future - where will it take you? Take pride in all of those marks, differently shaped body parts, cellulite, engorged breasts, csection scars, loose bellies and thighs, they may all have little messages and lessons to share with you if you are opening to discovering what they are. Mine certainly had some to share this time around.
It is ok to have your moments and they may be often, hell I have them too BUT you deserve to see yourself and your body for the divine, fierce, strong, feminine QUEEN that it is, as it is right now! Draw on your strengths to get you through those difficult times, do something that allows you to feel kick arse and that increases your wellbeing - and with time those moments will become shorter and less intense, leaving more time and energy for you to feel queeny, confident, resilient and present.